Part Three; Chapter Five.

Winston finally did it. He betrayed Julia. I'm not exactly surprised. Winston is so completely terrified of rats that I feel that he is willing to do anything but face them. I guess I can relate. If I was faced with my biggest fear I don't think I would be able to hold it together. Especially when I knew the one thing that could save me. In Winston's case, it is giving up and betraying Julia. I feel that this is going to take a significant toll on Winston. Even though he may not love Julia, the one thing he did not want to do was betray her. In the long run, by now, she has probably betrayed him. Its a natural human instinct to protect yourself before others.
Now that I know what Room 101 is, I can see why everyone is so terrified by it. I was way off when I thought it had anything to do with Big Brother, but I guess in the long run everything comes back to him. Winston is being tortured because of Big Brother. Winston was caught because he was against Big Brother. Winston is going to die because of Big Brother. I'm almost dreading reading the last chapter. I'm not quite ready to figure out what happens to all of them. However, I need to know. But, I'm scared the last chapter is not going to contain all the answers to my questions. Like, what is happening or happens to Julia? Will Winston completely transform and love the Party? Will O'Brien find a new Winston? These questions are ones that are going to bother me until they are answered.